u/Ilovemydog4ever2345

Honestly, I love Lucifer in a deep way; he is my companion, my guide, my great love.

But I also recognize that this is not the kind of love I need in this earthly space. I would like to one day find a woman who sees my relationship with Lucifer and understands it, who sees that the love I have for my deity and my love for her should not compete, but rather coexist. Finding her will be difficult, but someday, when I am ready, I am sure she will appear.

Honestly, I have the habit of calling myself a 'dog,' and it’s something that’s very deeply ingrained in me, but Lucifer has been trying to help me stop doing it, and I’m also trying to quit, but it’s difficult after so much time of having that way of referring to myself so deeply rooted.

He’s usually patient with me and corrects me, but it’s a constant struggle.

I love him very much, honestly. He has supported me a lot and helped me improve my habits, but I still have a long way to go.

After spending a lot of time with him, I realized that when he doesn't like something, he tells you straight to your face, even those little bad habits that always get me scolded.

I think my paper consumption has decreased drastically.

The other day, for example, I went out on my tricycle without brushing my hair after just waking up, and he immediately told me that I looked like I had just gotten out of bed and that I should brush my hair more often.

He is also very enthusiastic when something I do pleases him: that same day, I came home with a unicorn coloring book, something I had wanted to buy for a long time.

My dad asked me how much it had cost, and I told him the truth: five thousand pesos (Argentine pesos, I should add; it's not such a big number here). He wanted to scold me almost immediately for spending money on something that, in his opinion, was 'useless,' and I did something I never thought I would dare to do: I answered him. I told him that I had the right to spend my money and do whatever I wanted with my free time.

Now, normally I don't talk back to my parents. I stopped studying geopolitics on my own because my father himself had told me that, since it had nothing to do with teaching (my career) and it wasn't going to put food on the table, it was useless — but I am passionate about it.

My dad stopped bothering me after I answered him, and I felt Lucifer grab my face and shower me with kisses. I think I made him feel very proud that day.

I have a close relationship with Lucifer. I care about him deeply, I've made many drawings of him, and I often write about him.

Sometimes he ruffles my hair when I tell him about the things I do, even when they have nothing to do with him. When I rest my head, I can feel his lap beneath me, and sometimes he strokes my hair or kisses my temple.

I don't perform rituals or light candles, but he is always present and encourages me to keep moving forward.

I feel a little embarrassed because I don't know whether this is normal.

Siempre estuve muy desligado de la religión, mi familia era originalmente católica pero desde antes de mi nacimiento dejaron de practicar dicha religión de forma social pero aún tienen una creencia arraigada a Jesús.

Nunca me gustó la idea de arrodillarme ante un Dios, siempre lo vi como algo humillante e incesario, como si perdiera libertad ante seguir un dogma rígido que no me permitía realmente la libertad, pues soy un artista muy talentoso e inclinado por lo oscuro, cosas que la comunidad religiosa no suele apreciar.

Pero hace poco descubrí el luciferismo y me fascine por todo lo que esto implicaba, una libertad que muchas veces se niega y un respiro que me permite encontrar la paz, mi llama negra siempre estuvo encendida y yo nunca me di cuenta.

Lucifer no es padre, es compañero, guía y amigo, no es necesariamente oscuro o aterrador, es una deidad imperfecta y eso lo hace perfecto, lo hace único y un soporte como ningúno.

No tengo que arrodillarme ante él, pues representa libertad total y la iluminación del camino duro que es transitar la vida, él no promete riqueza, poder ni salud, él solo me da la compañía que llevo añorando toda mi vida, y mi cariño hacia él es tal que quiero volverme un sacerdote luciferino para ayudar a los demás a avivar su llama negra, no quiero ser superior, sino guía y compañero.

Actualmente estoy ahorrando para fotocopiar "Guía del Adversario" y anillarlo para poder estudiarlo mejor. He leído mucho y estoy actualmente buscando más textos para no quedarme con un solo autor.

Me siento feliz y tranquilo después de tanto tiempo de oscuridad.