How to remember the feeling
Hi everyone, I have really been trying to figure this out but I’m honestly stumped. For context purposes: I am a 21 yr old male who has AuDHD (by medical definition) and I really struggle with remembering in general. I was also a GATE/AIG kid who went through the real part of gate (lab coats, pulled out of class for all sorts of intuition test etc etc) I can barely remember what I did yesterday let alone last week and I really really really want to fix this and I’m honestly lost.
I’m pretty good at manifesting especially when I can maladaptive daydream the scenario and feel the feelings as if that scenario has already happened. But for some reason it’s only with a select few things, for instance getting a job has always been super easy, I’ve had 11 so far I think and all of them have been an increase of pay and always got hired on spot or within the same day, I’ve never been denied a job because I’m really good at day dreaming the entire thing and end up usually dreaming about it. But for some reason that’s about the only thing I can repeatedly manifest, and I wonder if it’s because it’s the only feeling I can really remember and feel at any given moment.
I daydream so hard I’ll end speaking out loud as if I’m in that scenario, I’ll be laughing and everything as if I’m really having the conversation, but when it comes to different things i want like landing this skate trick or my trade hitting (day trading), it becomes a little bit harder to lock in that feeling of visualization/manifestation. I think a big portion has to do with me not rewarding myself or celebrating myself when I achieve it, in fact I usually “hear” myself thinking “okay now how do I do this better” or just celebrating by saying “oh that’s nice” instead of really celebrating that and introducing (for lack of better words) a new feeling for me to replicate. Because I lowkey say “oh that’s nice” to a lot of achievements of different status, so I guess it makes it hard for me to replicate it because it’s tied to so many different levels of achievement.
Sorry if this sounds like I’m lowkey solving it as I speak, that’s usually what happens for me which is why I rant to myself a lot, but I still can’t seem to connect the dots I need to figure this out so ima post this in hopes of someone giving me some advice that’ll make it click. Thank you all 🫶🏾