u/Imaginary-Mammoth-90

When it first happened, i had a week where i was beside myself - couldn’t eat, sleep, and felt physically sick to my stomach. But after that my mindset flipped, and I felt almost empowered.. like who needs men anyway. I felt motivated to become the best version of myself. But now a few months later, since my initial empowered phase, i’ve been gradually feeling worse and worse. I’m thinking of him 24/7 and the thought that he’s probably moving on with his life doing fine is crushing me. I find myself constantly stalking his socials, even though he never posts and there’s nothing to see. Has anyone else found that as time goes on the loss only feels more painful?

I’m really fighting the urge right now. We’ve been 2 months no contact. Is there anyone that would mind reading through the message i want to send them (it’s long) and maybe talk me out of it?