Not sure how to feel
Hey all,
So, my ex and I have cohabited a long while after (and through) the divorce. We will have 50/50, and she is a few weeks out now from moving out. The last few weeks, she has actually been trying to do more with the kids, and this afternoon offered (to them) to take them to an extracurricular I normally handle. She then told me that maybe I could use a night to myself. She also mentioned taking them to a movie soon.
Most of our marriage, it was almost impossible to get her to get out and actually do things with the kids on her own. I should feel relief and hopeful that she's actually stepping up with them more. But I mostly feel either resentful or worried. Resentful for the fact that, during the marriage, I begged her to do more with them and was met with indifference. The worry, I think is mostly that it either won't last, that it's not genuine, or that maybe I'll just, I don't know, no longer feel as needed or something. I should be happy, it's good for them. I'm working through it. But it just feels off, and a warning light is going off somewhere. Is there something to that at all? In general she cares for them, but is pretty detached in overall.