Baby 5 - feeling worried
Unexpectedly pregnant with baby #5…. Yes we know how it happens and blah blah - this was a birth control baby.
We had been having discussions about a 5th and weren’t fully decided either way - hence why no permanent BC measures.
Well now I’m newly pregnant with our fifth and I’m suddenly freaking out. Here are all my thoughts, please tell me if they’re just hormonal/irrational/etc. Tell me your thoughts and experiences before and after your fifth arrived.
Thoughts-
Five isn’t a nice number, four is a perfectly nice even number. Now one child won’t have mom or dad’s hand to hold.
Was this a mistake? It took getting pregnant with 5 and it being real to realize maybe this isn’t what I want?
I do this every pregnancy, I worry that we have the perfect dynamic and one more is just going to be absolute utter chaos and throw everything into disarray. I’ve loved every child thus far and they’ve fit perfectly, I can’t imagine life without them. But four is a lot - to many people. It doesn’t feel like a lot to me, but we get a lot of comments. Five however, for some reason, does suddenly feel like a lot to me.
I guess I’m just asking, if you have 5, tell me about it, the good and the bad. How did you feel when you found out? How did the dynamic change? I know no one is ever going to say they wish a specific child wasn’t born - but do you ever wish you had stopped at 4?