Hello, I've never posted on here before, but I felt like I needed to get this off of my chest.
I have a wonderful girlfriend, she's everything I could ever ask for and more. But I don't feel comfortable in my own skin whenever I'm in a relationship.
I've had trouble with intimacy since I was harmed by an ex. (I'm safe now) But in every relationship I've had since I shut myself down and disassociate whenever intimacy is involved.
I don't know what to do and I'm scared about what I might do just to avoid intimacy. I love my girlfriend, but I'm just scared of being taken advantage of again. It's an irrational fear but the thought of it gives me weeklong nightmares and I don't know how to explain it to her.
Thank you for letting me tell my story, if there's any advice you'd like to share, please go ahead.
Thank you