m17 (me) with gf f18. Is my insecurity risking our relationship
is my insecurity risking my relationship
i have this gf of quite a while and we love each other very much we're very serious yadayada.
She's told me about her ex who basically became distant after they slept together and they broke up because of that (although she chased him for a while to try make it work) and while it wasn't great for me to hear i listened patiently and was supportive and all. thing is we got together like december of that year while they broke up in july/june kinda, so i thought no problems at all. Found out that at a party the week before i asked her to be my gf (we had been seriously flirting and were very much intending to get together for two months) she was drunk crying over her ex. which she never told me really. i know she's over him but she still gets sad about it sometimes even today and while she says she feels nothing but apathy for him i just am so insecure and get so pissed about it. not at her just at everything. uncomfy ig. maybe i'm rambling idk but i don't know what to do because i feel intensely off but don't want to disturb her mindset atm (she's under a lot of stress bc of exams) so i just put on a smile and act like i dont think about it when i INTENSELY do. She's my first gf and i feel awful for feeling off about me being her 3rd bf. But i love her and there's nothing i'd change about her guh how do i manage this in myself.