I’m 21 around 3-4 weeks pregnant with my long term boyfriends baby, when I found out I was so happy in the sense I feel like I’ve been given a purpose as I’ve always struggled with the sense of not knowing my purpose in life. As soon as a told the father I think he automatically assumed we were on the same page about aborting as we aren’t “ready” to bring a baby into the world. I’ve been kind of “pretending” I’m okay with aborting and I kindve made like a joke comment saying what would you say if I told you I wanted to keep it and he kind of freaked out a bit saying I would tell you we’re not ready. I understand how he feels as he still has things he wants to do like going to uni and pursing what he wants to get out of life. I do not atall want to “baby trap” him. I do not care in the slightest if he is involved or not I feel more of the sense this is for me if that makes sense but at the same time I don’t want to be selfish and force him into a situation he doesn’t want even though he has all the right to leave and not be involved but of course that doesn’t just remove the fact he would still be a father. I’m really torn on the situation, I have no idea what to do or where to go from here.
Just looking for any sort of advice really :(