How do I get over this dumb hurdle. (T4T)
Ok so long story short me (22mtf) and my partner (27ftm) have been together almost 2 years. We have had ups and downs but im more inlove then ive ever been. The relationship is great is what im trying to say lol. But for a lot of reason we only started getting physical since like December but like really really physical has only been for a mouth.
Its been incredible healing are sexuale traumas and holy crap its just all in all magical. Its my first time being in a t4t relationship irl and my first time with someone AFAB and there's a lot of new sense stimulates that im getting used to. Im very aware that a lot of the new things is stuff that ill learn or experience enough that I wont even notice it anymore.
Buttttt there one thing I just cant get my brain over. He squirts. Its fucking magical to watch but my dumb brain just cant get over the fact that it smells and looks like pee. I hate that i have this reaction. Hes so happy when it happens and I wanna be a part of it. I love it to. But my brain just cant get over the "omg its pee gross!!!" Reaction. I feel so much shame. I feel so much like a dim sis guy when i have this reaction. I want to love every aspect of my man. Any advice???
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