I miss him
I broke up before like 2 days ...I miss him badly ...I am muslim and he is hindu ...we started dating 5 months ago ...we both got attached and i thought we both were serious about each other since he always acted like that ... initially I used to joke "call me at your wedding" or used to say shits like we can't get married...so I could hear him defend ut and say we will get married but he never said that ...after like 3 months into dating i told him ..I really like him a lot and if things work out I would definitely like to get married to him one day ..he said he can't say anything about marriage since different religions I said yeah ik but we need to try we can't do everything according to our parents and society..he said family is important to him ..and from there we had a lot of fights ...I fought cause I wanted that reassurance that he would take a stand for me ,fight for me ..but he not even once said to him ...lastly I told him if we have no future we should prolly breakup cause it's if no use i will only be hurt after investing so much ...he didn't let me breakup ...I even stopped talking to him but he came back every time saying he couldn't stay ...he asked me to wait ...somehow I knew he wouldn't fight for me and when the time would come he would choose his family ...after like 2 months a few days back i told him ki u need to tell me soon now I can't wait more he said first 2-4 days since he wanted to talk to his family first then tell me his decision...after 4 days he told me I will tell u tomorrow when I asked him the next day ..he said to give him some more time ..to which I got upset ...and i thought he would convince me make me understand but infact he was like alright then I am going to sleep with my mom and went ...well from this month we are in long distance before that he was nots trying with his family ...I was so shocked ...like 1 month into dating he used to make me understand whenever I used to get angry he used to call me again and again ask me what happened...all that slowly went ...from 1.5 months he no longer does anything like that anymore....and I was so hurt that he just went to sleep when he could visibly see I am upset ..he knew how much it would hurt me since things have been very tough for us ..from the day he went to his home town he barely gives me any time ...we barely talk he gets no damn privacy ...in that 5 months he never let me go i tried breaking up many times cause I was hurt many times ..I am not perfect either I hurt him many times as well but he doesn't let me go ..but doesn't put any effort either ...and after that might he went to sleep ..I said no need to speak to ur family any more I am breaking up and blocked him ....I blocked him from every place ...not once did he call me after that not even tried to reach out ( I receive notifications from blocked calls too) also he has another number jiska recharge has finished i didn't block that number but he didn't try to reach me out ..I miss him ...and I don't understand..I am heartbroken.