u/ImaginationFull4458

I (17F) have never really had friends growing up. In elementary school, I was the “weird kid” who would literally stand under the basketball goal just to catch other kids’ balls, hoping someone would talk to me. No one really did. High school wasn’t much different. I was mostly ignored, or sometimes people would pretend to like me as a joke. That went on until 11th grade, when I met my boyfriend (18M). He’s honestly great, and I care about him a lot. The problem is… he has a lot of friends. He always has someone to talk to, whether it’s texting, calling, or playing games like Minecraft together. When I join them, I kind of feel invisible. His friends don’t really interact with me unless he directly brings me into the conversation. Most of the time I’m just sitting there quietly while they all talk and joke. Lately, I’ve been feeling jealous. Not of him as a person, but of what he has. I wish I had my own group of friends like that. People who actually want to talk to me and include me. I told him how I’ve been feeling, trying to explain that I’m happy he has friends, but it also makes me feel lonely sometimes. He got really upset and said I’m always “seeking attention” and that I should just be happy for him. Now I feel guilty for even bringing it up. I don’t want to take anything away from him, I just wish I had that kind of connection too. I’ve tried meeting people through online spaces, community events, and even my job, but nothing has really stuck. So… AITJ for feeling this way?