My mom is a hardcore DDS and it ruined our relationship
For context, I don't like debating about anything with my family Kasi as a bunso who is overly sensitive ako lang iiyak at Hindi nila papansinin in the end, I can't deal with the mental torture. Usually pasok labas sa tenga lahat ng sinasabi niya to keep the peace kahit na Hindi talaga ako sang ayon, I have to constantly bite my tongue and try to change the subject. I've had multiple damaging arguments with her that led to the deterioration of my mental health or for me to distance from her.
I want to be able to just have a normal conversation with her. I miss my mom, dad passed away due to COVID and she's the only one I have. Despite having political differences, I wanted to set it aside. I try my best to NEVER bring up politics around her. To the point that my Facebook has a setting where I will only reshare political posts to certain people except my mom. That's because if she sees me reshare something that is the opposite of her belief she will call me up non stop to harass and berate me of my opinion.
I have never done this to her. I told her that it's best if we don't talk about politics at all and just talk to me as your daughter. She took that as me talking back, and now she won't stop calling me "demonyong anak". She would start accusing me that I was an NPA, and I'd be red tagged.
Nakakapagod. Nakakadrain. I'm not apolitical I just learned how to be Infront of my mother, I act dumb and ignorant cause I don't wanna have to deal with any more fights. I know a lot of you won't agree with me pero I can't afford to fight with her. But I feel like napapalayo na Yung loob ko.
I just wanna hear her support me and I just wanna have a nice conversation with my mom.... Why is that so hard. I've been trying to fix our relationship pero every time I do napapalayo ung loob ko. I've tried so many things, I pray about her all the time, linibre ko na siya ng bakasyon, I don't know what else she wants from me.
How can she easily call me a devil's child when all I've been doing is trying to make her proud. And all because of tanginang DDS Duterte shit I lost my mom. I can't reconnect with her no matter how much I try.
I just want my mom back....