u/Immediate-Bet6500

So I'm new to the church and set up a home prayer space not too long ago. I was exploring other religions before landing on the church, and I would use a built-in table in my closet for my altar. One of those religions was theistic satanism, were i would burn crosses and spit on the name of God and even call on demons. Now I use it for my prayers to God. I'm wondering if and how I should purify the space after all that?

So I come from a polytheistic background and recently felt a pull towards the Episcopalian church, and I even set up a prayer space/altar. The thing is, I'm scared to pray; it feels hard just leaving my old beliefs behind. I want to pray, but I just can't idk how else to describe it. I am also afraid that God might be mad at me because I was a theistic satanist at one point and during that time, I would burn crosses and "spit" on the name of God. How can I get over my fear of praying and is God mad at me?

So I have been exploring religions lately (Buddhism, paganism, Hinduism, Satanism, etc) and am now interested in the Episcopalian church. So, I'm an openly gay guy who loooves theatrics. my biggest problem with Christianity is that even if you were a great person, if you don't believe in Jesus your going to hell. I also love having a big elaborate home altar with statues, incense, and a commanding but welcoming energy. Would you recommend i look more into the Episcopal church, and maybe even set up an altar or does this religion not fit my views