I'm exhausted in the efforts of making them trust.
I'm a woman....yup...relevant to my venting🤣. I wanna learn car driving and I already expected all the worries they would have about men teaching...they will kidnap you🤦♀️. Now, don't get me wrong, I know...the world is becoming more cruel...and i get there is nothing wrong with being safe...it is necessary. I agree. But do they not see that I also know the risks and research accordingly? Do they think I'm just a rash person who wants to die in the middle of the street in the hands of a stranger due to my stupidity?
I just literally mentioned...'im browsing for driving sch....' didn't even let me finish and started blabbing...its dangerous, find ladies driving school.....blah blah
Just ask me not to learn at all at this point. That feels less cruel. Again, I know being safe is better than being kidnapped but maybe trust me a little when I say things like that meaning I might search a ladies one or research more of it's men???
Bcoz....all the energy and excitement i had to learn it gets hurt by the immediate negativity. They could have encouraged me to search for one and then gently ask about safety after I fixed one?? Is it too much to ask?
Not just this....I researched about a writing club, checked it's legitimacy and even talked to one of the members and decided to go there ....it's in a big Cafe...famous cafe.
She immediately stops...no no....we don't know anybody there....(indirectly u will be kidnapped or dead)
Again I get the safety thing...but i explained her clearly many times that trust me that i have no interest in making impulse decisions that gets me killed...I would obviously factor in the danger elements and be safe. Ofc...im not saying she should stop inquiring all together but maybe feel happy for a minute...encourage for a second and then ask about safety??? Right??
Fuck...im just exhausted to calculate every little thing and wonder whether i would get approval or not.
I can't wait to leave here. (Not to go around and make rash decisions but to breathe normally for a second).
I personally feel...as much as I would like to ignore...I obviously gotta be extra safe out there...even if I know martial arts or not...but i also believe nothing should stop me from trying and living my life, u just have to find ways to still live ur life.
I'm exhausted having to explain them that trust me a little to make mature decisions...fuckkkkk youuuu.
What do u guys think?