Something that shouldn't have... has been hurting for a day now.
I am under the impression that I made someone (say "Person A") feel "unsafe"... and such implications about my character, no matter how irrational / rational, terrify me. I want to be someone people feel safe around and I suppose this thought pattern puts me under suspicion.
Regardless of whether Person A forgot about the ordeal (they had reinforcement and support by their friend "Person B")... my judgement and demeanor during that moment is eating at me as if I've wronged myself and who I am, no matter how small a mistake it was.
Rough outline of the moment from my perspective...
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Person A was in the middle of a conversation about how they can't get girls.
I told them why not give a reason?
Person A said no
I told them, what if they were afraid of facing those reasons?
Person A told me to get roles (obviously trying to change the topic maybe?)
I told them no need to dodge the question because I'm here for them.
Person B comes in (friend of Person A) and tells me that they don't want help.
A smol arg about whether we should acknowledge that Person B might need the encouragement or whether it's ok to leave them alone and with their boundaries.
Got a bit heated after both antagonized my savior act (understandably I hope), I'll have to admit that I said "What an agenda" at one point as a comment to Person B's "antagonizing".
I did apologize later in the day. (hopefully Person A acknowledged it. Otherwise it'd have been for nothing, y'know?)
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I realized I misjudged and need to do better than to shove my ideas into people that aren't ready for them.
I am trying to ground myself and tell myself that this one mistake is not the sole arbiter of my role in the world, despite the cognitive bias.
Thank you for reading up to here. You're a good listener.