This is a devastating loss
40f, 23 years together, 18 married. Divorce will be finalized soon, but we separated not even 2 months ago. This is the worst loss I've experienced, and I've lost several loved ones. It may be worse than going through infertility and then deciding to not keep trying.
Mostly I know I'm gonna make it, but sometimes it seems insurmountable. Especially bc I didn't want this. Still don't. But then I can see that we grew apart and are no longer compatible. Ugh. So many truths to hold in my head at the same time.
I was reminded on mother's day that in this divorce I also lose my mother in law, who has been the only present mother I've had.
I'm doing everything I can to take care of myself. Eating well, sleeping, exercising, spending time with friends and family, therapy, working... And it's still excruciating.
I know it'll get better but damn. This sucks.