u/Immediate_Point_5748

Where do racist people expect Black people who grew up around them to go?

Like genuinely. If a Black person was born in the same country, went to the same schools, watched the same shows, played the same sports, spoke the same language, lived in the same neighborhoods, and grew up inside the same national culture — what exactly is the imagined separation supposed to be?

Because a lot of racism seems to operate like Black people are somehow “outside” of the society they were literally raised in.

So where are we supposed to go?

We are already from here.

When people think of someone who is I guess "bad" I think they typically go off of how they make you feel. The problem with this is that people who make you feel anything are coming from a trajectory that was set likely before they even knew how it would make YOU feel.

An example of this is a guy like me. I come from a home where I was taught to hate myself and was beat if I ever felt like I could be worth anything. And then the place outside of that home was non inclusive. So the only place to go was inside of my own mind. But if course I try to get out of that cycle but it had developed into an entire chest mechanism.

I've had to beat the burden that other people are not going to help me as a child and even have to be responsible for adults emotional states both in a abusive home and a fearful racist outward environment. I grow up and see how comfortable people are with going along with this dynamic for their own sake. I see how little people care. Then to get older make something of myself and then be told to go to therapy and just let things go. And that I'm a loser. When really I'm a man who has been put through erasure and you call yourself human and yet I somehow have to try to figure out what the collective society has done to me all while navigating the society that continues to do it to me even after haven served my country.

Not to say I deserve something special. But human decency is what has lacked the entirety of my existence..... And I'm the loser for being sensitive.

If I were the problem I don't think the country would be in the condition it is in with this level of division. 🤔. It looks to me like the same mass population that was willing to do what you did to a child that didn't fit your political script of who to help is now starting to attack one another 🤔.

So my question is to the women. What do you actually stand for outside of the political talking points that you are so passionate about? What is YOUR actual philosophy. How do you justify looking me in my face and saying "yeah that guy is a loser because he is a scapegoat"

And furthermore do you honestly think I could escape such a role of being a scapegoat when I am as aware and curious and wanting to seek truth as I am? If you know you know. If you don't understand that there are people like this in the world then the question is not for you.

I resent so many of you. Not because you are a woman. I resent the men too. I resent society. Because I just know that there will not now nor will ever be any point in time where people ever really get me. I think very differently. I think in systems I'm wired for transcontextual thought and deep scrutiny of moral frames and expectations. Quite frankly I feel like YOU people of the world are the monsters.

You do things that quite frankly frighten ME with your vices. I look forward to the day I die. Because I really don't think people really deserve the type of person that I am on the inside. This country has remained in existence for as long as it has and this is the generation where things that are unprecedented and structurally disruptive have started to happen. That is very sad and If you don't see that everyone of you, men included are the problem then you just don't get it.

The thing that was lost in this country was the narrative and the ethos. We didn't build this country off of selfish utilitarianism. We built it off of manifest destiny and the notion of liberty for all. I do not feel free. I feel stripped of my humanity. We used to be a nation of heroes. You people just want and want. Everyone. So nihilistic and so people hating so adverse to being, ANYTHING for anyone. And yet have done nothing for this country. And yet have the audacity to talk about how you are afraid. Why don't you do something for someone other than yourself. If you're afraid of men well I'm terrified of ALL of you people. You'll let everything burn to the ground before you admit that your "achiever" behavior your "stop being so sensitive" behavior has been the cause of so many problems.

So How do I escape the mess that you have made and continue to make?

If you do could you please share your enneagram type?

It's not that big of a deal. People attack losers. Yeah I'ma loser. So? You pride yourself in attacking people who are lost? That's kind of animalistic don't you think?