Partner doesnt feel appreciated, I dont feel heard.
I dont even know what to title this yet pero gusto ko lang ilabas yung repressed feelings ko kasi kahit na anong isip ko sa bright side o positive things, lagi nalang ako naddrain sa energy ng partner ko.
To be fair, he (/she) is sweet and loving in terms of effort and touch. Pero in terms of connection and what I actually want or need, hindi kami match. Effort: he will surprise me with chocolates and flowers. I wasnt into chocolates and he will give me a boquet of roses–roses are my least favorite flowers.
That probably sums up our relationship, bibigay siya ng effort but it wont match what I really like. Not to sound ungrateful, tinatanggap ko naman lahat with a cheery voice and a grateful attitude but eventually i have to tell him 'that's not actually what i prefer...'.
Partner is probably giving effort in his own ways. Lagi na nga akong nasasabihan na di ko daw siya naappreciate. Pero pano mo maappreciate yung mga bagay na di mo gusto. Tapos di ka papakinggan pag sinabi mo kung anong gusto mo talaga. Nagkkwento ako about material things but it has reflected in much deeper things in our relationship. Cause even when we do our daily 'bond' since magkaiba kami ng schedule, yun nalang yung catch up namin pero lahat ng bukambibig niya is just about him and what happened to him. Tinatry ko isingit yung sarili ko but it's like a conversation between a mute person to a deaf one. I just dont feel heard.