I’m so nervous (& need some comfort)
Hey, I guess I just wanted to write a post to get some things off my chest.
On march this year, my service dog passed away unexpectedly. The past 5 months have been horrible without my best friend.
I was extremely lucky my insurance wanted to cover service dog trainings for a new prospect.
I’m enrolled in an ADI-owner training program just as I have done before with my previous service dog.
I have to search for a service dog prospect puppy myself mostly. Of course the organization I work with assist me with this, but I am mainly the one looking for a suitable dog and they advice me/are available for puppy testing. I’ve been looking and calling breeders a lot but I haven’t found something I feel confident in.
Before I had a german shepherd, he was amazing. But a golden retriever or labrador suits my needs more in this stage of my life. It has been really hard to find a good breeder, but just a few hours ago I found out a reputable guide dog organization offer 2 - 3 pups for adoption from their own breeding program out of a litter with 7 pups.
I saw the post 3 hours after it was posted and I immediately e-mailed them I was interested. The mother is 3/4 lab and 1/4 golden. The father is a field line golden.
This is a dream combination for me.
But I am so extremely nervous. The pups are 8,5 weeks old now, so I think they want to find a home for them as soon as possible. I already got a reply back from them in the afternoon. Hopefully I will hear more from them tomorrow and I also hope my own program is able to go with me to see if we can match a puppy with me.
But I’m so scared.
So scared they might reject me or scared they’ve picked out other people. I dunno. I’m also scared that maybe the 3 pups aren’t suitable.
I’m hoping for the best. But I try not to get my hopes too high. The past months have been horrible and filled with grief. I know Flo (my previous service dog) would want me to be happy. And I know a new puppy will help me gaining my life back.
But I’m just so, so scared and nervous.