u/Important-Tea-1710

I have accepted that you’re never going to speak to me again.
I’ve learned to never make anyone my everything ever again. Because they can and will leave you on any random day despite what you thought you were building together.
It was like a full time job to try to bring us close again. And every time I thought it might slightly be working and maybe we’d make it, you’d just pull away. Erasing all my effort and attempts at progress. Putting us right back at square one every time and leaving me to be the one to have to fix it, alone, every time. And each time I had less and less to give. It was slowly depleting me because you were not filling my cup in return. But I was still there giving you everything I had. And I guess that was my mistake.
It was always me apologizing, me reflecting, me trying to repair, me trying to understand you. Me giving all the effort and love. It was completely one sided and unfair to me and unfair to us as a couple trying to give it a shot.
With all of that being said, I would still take you at your worst before I’d take another one. I can’t help but wish some day you’ll show up at my door. I miss you and I love you always.
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