u/Important-Tomato2306

Has anyone had any experience with bedphones? They read as the best possible headphones to sleep in (not earbuds but still over the ear) with good noise cancellation and comfort.

For times when I'm in my more insomnia phase or times when I want desperately to nap but can't with whatever sounds are going on or especially when I get migraines, I've wanted something that cancels the noise as well as my over the ear headphones with active noise cancellation while still being comfortable sleeping on my side. I haven't found any good set of ear buds that provide that kind of quiet or side sleeping comfort.

Like I'm sure most of us experience from time to time, but I struggled to sleep last night. It was like my drugs were a fluke. For any normal person, one rough night sucks. In media, this is often portrayed as someone with 5'o'clock shadow, frazzled hair, falling asleep during a meeting or cab ride, and consuming comedically grandiose quantities of black coffee.

That may be how some feel missing one quality night of sleep. We obviously don't get that luxury because we already feel this regardless of sleep. But what normal people often don't realize is, just because we are used to poor sleep and not feeling rested, doesn't mean these aren't extremely difficult days for us as well.

So last night, after multiple hours of hoping I'll fall asleep soon, I started doing some work-work and then got distracted and watched a YouTube video about modafinil. I thought it was going to help explain the drug to me a little better (the more you know, you know). But it was actually a video about modafinil being this "smart drug" like Adderall or Ritalin and people have been using it to improve their performance at work, athletically, and just in life in general. I would need to see if I can find it again because the video seemed like it was telling people how to "safely that a prescription drug that they have no script for" which is pretty horrid.

But it got me thinking about how I'm going to pop my modafinil tomorrow, and I'm going to pop a second midmorning, and all I'm really going to experience is not being able to get a quality nap in. I won't be more effective at work today. I won't be more efficient at packing. I'm won't be hitting the treadmill or the weight room or much of anything besides the hay a few times today as I try to continue this charade of being human.

So the medicine I need just so I don't fall asleep during a meeting in not a theatrically comedic way that catches the attention of the boss who tells me to take more vacation leading to me somehow leading this year's Hallmark classic, but in the way that is just making life harder, that medicine is a pill that normal people can take to improve their cognitive function and allow them to actually create and work and focus? How is that fair?!

I finally tried Adderall about a year ago to see if it would help along with or instead of modafinil. It only made me sleepy! It just feels very frustrating that the meds that simply prevent me from crashing out for 3-6 hours in the middle of the day, not that make me feel alive and refreshed, let other people alive and refreshed!

To make matters worse and to add the final blow with my early morning rant, guess who gets to enjoy the fun task of not only existing but also packing up a 2 bed townhouse I've lived in for nearly 11 years now within 2 weeks alone? Me of course. I spent about 3 hours in one room last night, going through donations and packing up, and that's what I could tolerate. This is going to take me forever. I took off 3 days from work over next weekend to hopefully give me more time.

This is going to be one of those days. I'll have a 2 hour call this early morning for work, I'll try to sneak a nap (but I took 200mg of modafinil with my morning meds so I likely won't be able to get the quality of nap I really need), go to therapy, try to nap again, give up and pack until I'm too tired to do anything else but watch Working Moms before calling it and then charge 8 hours to the office, begrudgingly crawling back into the sheets of disappointment, and the cycle starts over again.