So, a week ago I did a stream of consciousness writing as a method of finding my type, and while I did get some decent answers on where to go next, I do agree that the info I gave from that text can be a bit lacking since it seems to be more predominated with instincts stuff (but hey, at least it seems to be quite clear I have strong sp.). And so I guess looking more into how I respond to conflict (like when I don't get my way, when my needs are not met, or just bad outcomes overall, etc.), is probably the next direction I am going to be heading, since what I wrote previously is in a state where I am not really set off or encountering issues.
Just to simply sum up on how I react when things go bad, from what I have gathered, I seem to have two modes when responding: I either tend to become highly reactive and defensive, or just remain silent and not have an obvious response at all. On one side, I quiet down and just become unresponsive to what's around me, usually to pull myself together and not do something rash or impulsive, but also do it as a silent sort of rebelling to subtly express how upset I am (in our country, we call it dedma or dead malice, meaning to feign ignorance). The other side is that I become defensive to the point I sound aggressive or hostile to the other person, which looks like trying to explain my side and position, justifying or coming up with reasons to defend myself, and just sounding annoyed or defensive even if it's not my intention or how I see it my own pov. Basically reacting strongly which is the opposite of the former, and in my own experience, I usually react like that when I feel like I expect humiliation or punishment against the other person, or just simply to explain my side and ensure that the other person is understanding where I am coming from so they won't misunderstand me.
From what I know (and from what mom told me), it seems like the more defensive response comes first and what has been my go-to defense since I was younger, while the going quiet and unresponsive defense comes later as I grow up and seems to be the more secondary response. Even when it doesn't involve other people, it's quite easy for me to just get upset and react strongly in a situation, even if I don't outwardly complain it out loud, but I never look away from it, I could never tell myself that it's going to be fine in the end even if I want it to end out ok, I just find it hard to convince myself that it's okay or finding a bright side of things because it would piss me off even more.