Feeling overwhelmed with new kitten
My family bought a kitten from a breeder about 3 days ago and it’s been really overwhelming. Me and my brother were the ones pushing to get a cat since we always loved them, I did research and I thought I was prepared for one but actually experiencing it is a whole different story. I know it’s only been 3 days but I feel so anxious about her. She’s only 8 weeks old and she’s so playful, she of course does the normal kitten stuff which is jump around and do zoomies, but my mum is really stressed about how she likes to jump on things. This just makes me so anxious as I wonder how it’ll be like in the future, it’s such a huge change in my life and I don’t know if I can handle it. I wish I would’ve done more research and thought about it more carefully, I feel so guilty because she’s a sweet kitten and deserves the best. I don’t know if I can do that for her and I can tell that my mum is really stressed about this too.
Currently her setup is in the bathroom and we have to leave her in there for long hours due to school and work, and I can’t help but feel anxious that she’s sad or alone. My mum also definitely doesn’t want a second kitten. She likes to meow a lot to let her out but we all have things to do and I’m scared that she’ll hurt herself or jump on something really high up. She’s super curious and likes the explore which is great but also she’s so active and it stresses me out 😭 Every little thing I see around the house I just can’t help but think what if she pushes it off? Or what if she accidentally eats a plant? I also have schoolwork to do when I get home so I can’t play with her for long, yet I feel so guilty because she’s been locked up in the bathroom for so long. We also have an open back staircase which is a huge stress causer because we’re scared she’ll go up and fall, currently we’ve closed it off but its only a matter of time before she figures out how to get on them
I really do want to love her but a part of me feels so guilty for even thinking about this, my friend has reassured me that she’ll be fine but I just feel so anxious all the time :( I don’t know if I can handle her but I definitely don’t want to give up on her, it’s not fair at all. I truly wish I thought about this huge decision more carefully.