Marriage ruined before even starting please advise
I got married a month and a half ago. 2 weeks in the husband was sharing explicit messages with his cousin who’s his ex and sharing intimate details about me with her. He also was texting other girls while I was at my parents. We moved things fast pre nikkah to make it halal so I keep blaming myself I didn’t do enough due diligence. He seems guilty and apologetic but I’m so heartbroken this is the type of thing that you read on internet and it happened to me now and I have to live with it for the rest of my marriage because I can’t leave him my dad spent so much money at this wedding he will genuinely die if he finds out. I’m in so much pain every day I wake up with such a weird feeling that I’m scared to go to sleep. I know I need to have sabr but has anyone else been through this? How did you get out of this? How do you forget this? I had the best one month of my life i thought I found my happy ending and my person but now I have nothing left because it was all a lie and a facade I can’t even look at my wedding pictures without feeling sick and it’s killing me.