Husband backed out
I have compromised on timing several times, first it was when we turn 30, then need to be married and a house, and communication issues. When it got close to the date we agreed to try, on a date in the spring, I talked to him again about readiness because I was preparing to go off medications for migraines. He said yes he’s on board.
Then 3/1 arrives at first he said nothing, like tried to pretend it wasn’t happening and when I brought it up we had sex that day and once the next. Then he spent several weeks refusing to be intimate until I called him out. He said again not ready so I said ok I told you this was last compromise I was making so I guess we’re divorcing. He acts devastated and wants to keep trying to fix things, so I cave and he finally goes to a doctor. Finally gets the antidepressants/anti anxiety help he’s needed for years. I give it a month, then two, then three. I try to ask how we will know when it’s time? He says he doesn’t know.
Then he got laid off from his job this week, so of course that’ll be another delay. I tried to talk about it, he shut me down and wants to talk to his therapist first. Meanwhile everyone around me has had their babies and I feel so left behind. I want to leave the relationship, but I’m afraid I won’t find someone new.