u/Impossible-Web-240

I'm 17 I'm 175cm and 92kg, I have acnee, bad hair styling, i'm fat, and the most disturbing thing.. I have a small pp, is only about 13cm and small in gridht, like only about 8 cm in gridht, the acnee, hair and body I can change them, but I'm insecure about my pp, I know them movies make you think you need to have a monster in the pants, but I think is even below avarage, at my age I don't think it will grow anymore and I'm affraid this will be a huge problem in future relationships, and not only that but I just feel bad having a small one.

Yes, I hate my dad, I believe in God and his commandments and that I should respect my parents but I just can't.

I'm 17 I'm from countryside and we have a lot of chores to do, but every single time I do something with him he keeps swearing and yelling at me and it hurts (in my language swearing is very "creative")

It hurts because is my dad, Im not perfect, but he keeps calling me dumb and so on, I want to destroy his car cuz we just had a fight, everything I do is not good, I'm dumb, I'm retared and so on, I hate him, even our neighbours hear when we fight and I'm ashamed of him having as my dad, he never said I love you, he never ever talked to me like I was his child, I never felt that son-dad relationship, and my mom don't say anything, she just watchs and try to ignore it.

What to do? I want revenge, but God keep giving him everything and forget about me.