u/ImpossibleSound2106

Do these thoughts go away or at the very least handled way better?

I haven’t had these thoughts in a while nor have I engaged with anything relating to it too. But like they came back and just had me feeling confused again, and like I don’t want these to appear in the future. I want to have a nice, peaceful life, with a good family if I also get to that point.

But I‘m concerned about these thoughts popping up again in the future as I become a fully grown adult, and I’m still uncertain if this fear is due to the distress of the thoughts themselves or the distress of the consequences that comes with being trans, which is what many trans people have expressed themselves, and there are some that have even expressed that it took until adulthood for them to accept that.

It is just so weird overall trying to distinguish the difference between these thoughts, because as a man, I’ve been comfortable and confident when I’m viewed as such, and the idea of being presented as a woman is odd, but it’s like some of these thoughts feel like I’m lying to myself.

Like the title says, this all of sudden popped back up in my mind. And the worst part is that I’m even more uncertain than I was previously, because I’m really thinking what if I am in denial, especially since I saw something involving this with myself that made me aroused, but I recently learned that arousal and euphoria sometimes overlap, and it has made me fear what if I’m feeling euphoria and I’m just denying myself, especially since euphoria is usually seen as the main sign of being trans.

But it becomes even more confusing in my mind, because I am a guy, and I always liked being a guy, and I much prefer when I’m viewed as masculine and really like it when someone calls me handsome. I’m not interested in the idea of being viewed as feminine. But that feeling of arousal has made me so much more confused, and like I don’t want to transition at all, but people who are trans have even said they don’t want to be trans.