u/Impossible_Jaguar_98

I have dirty dreams about you. They are dirty, so dirty I would not even begin to verbalize them. This crush is only in my mind and my god my mind is getting pretty sick up in here! 😂😭

How I wish I could tell you even a bit about these dreams. Damn!

I think I finally have the guts to tell you.

We both have amazing lives on our own that I would never want to hurt. But it is time for me to just say thank you for giving me that giddy school girl feeling, for those tingles when I hear your voice, or for making me smile in those random times I catch you with your guard down.

These feelings have been with me for over 3 years. It is time I am just honest. It is just a crush and one that isn’t stepping over any boundaries. It feels good to be giddy once in awhile. I’m taking it for what it is. Simple. Maybe it is just admiration. Unsure - but I need to be honest. Letting it out might help me just relax & breathE.

3 years and these stupid caught feelings linger. Get outta my brain with your electrifying ways. I need to shake you. Damnnn

Stupid boy. You are the one I went to when I needed advice on what she is about to embark. Didn’t you see how much it calmed me? You were my SME.

Now, the day is near and I cannot reach out to you about how I feel. I’m nervous. For her. I’m nervous. And I cannot tell you… I can’t for so many reasons.

I wish I could.

Yes I was looking at you today - you put yourself in the perfect spot for me to look at you directly for at least an hour. Thank you for small gift! ❤️will this hurt later, you betcha. But for that hour - I had dirty thoughts and fun smirks. Thank you

I’m not sure what tag is right…

This crush has been going on for over 2 years. It’s stupid honestly, I feel stupid for it. Cause my god you act like an ass a lot. So why did I catch feelings? Smart, funny, etc etc - yeah he checks all of those. But why, when I have a great freaking life, did I catch feelings? WTF

Nothing has happened. Nothing ever will. I’m trying to be positive and just realize that I can crush from sidelines without anyone knowing. But damn, this actually feels sad now. Like, I am mourning something that never even happened. Ugh.

Trying to process what it is, my attraction to you, even though I knew from beginning it was wrong.

Your brain. The smarts are my weakness.

Your competiveness. You want to win more than I do - have to admire it.

You can be humble. When you let your guard down, you are humble, salt of the earth. Real.

Your smile. It just makes me weak.

Your eyes. I melt - you looking at me, I lose my game face.

The way you take control. I will never admit this out loud but damn it is sexy as hell.

Man, I wish you were not a giant dickhead lately. Cause I was so very close to admitting it all. Damn you. Shoving it back down - way down.