Stupid boy. You are the one I went to when I needed advice on what she is about to embark. Didn’t you see how much it calmed me? You were my SME.
Now, the day is near and I cannot reach out to you about how I feel. I’m nervous. For her. I’m nervous. And I cannot tell you… I can’t for so many reasons.
I wish I could.
Yes I was looking at you today - you put yourself in the perfect spot for me to look at you directly for at least an hour. Thank you for small gift! ❤️will this hurt later, you betcha. But for that hour - I had dirty thoughts and fun smirks. Thank you
I’m not sure what tag is right…
This crush has been going on for over 2 years. It’s stupid honestly, I feel stupid for it. Cause my god you act like an ass a lot. So why did I catch feelings? Smart, funny, etc etc - yeah he checks all of those. But why, when I have a great freaking life, did I catch feelings? WTF
Nothing has happened. Nothing ever will. I’m trying to be positive and just realize that I can crush from sidelines without anyone knowing. But damn, this actually feels sad now. Like, I am mourning something that never even happened. Ugh.
Trying to process what it is, my attraction to you, even though I knew from beginning it was wrong.
Your brain. The smarts are my weakness.
Your competiveness. You want to win more than I do - have to admire it.
You can be humble. When you let your guard down, you are humble, salt of the earth. Real.
Your smile. It just makes me weak.
Your eyes. I melt - you looking at me, I lose my game face.
The way you take control. I will never admit this out loud but damn it is sexy as hell.
Man, I wish you were not a giant dickhead lately. Cause I was so very close to admitting it all. Damn you. Shoving it back down - way down.
Saw a different side of you awhile back that I thought was a one off. However, I learned it is not a one off as today I heard you say something else that confirms to me you are not the man I thought you were. Your controlling nature of “ruler of kingdom” is frankly, just ick vibes. You talk a big game, you don’t walk the talk.
This is good for me. I needed to step back and really observe from a different angle.
The crush is leaving the station 🚉🚂🚊