For better or worse? Quitting is no longer optional
Well, Kratom is illegal in my state in all forms starting on Tuesday. I’ve been meaning to quit for years. Have successfully quit on a couple of occasion for short periods of time, once for about 6 months and another for a month but always jumped back in thanks to the extract shots. Wd from those was pretty brutal.
Any advice or tips you guys have would be greatly appreciated. Been sitting around 10gpd for basically 2 years, fluctuating up and down from that of course. Obviously, I am preparing to embrace the suck. But really needing the extra motivation right now. My job is emotionally demanding and it’s always been so hard even to delay my evening dose, let alone try to skip it or take less than usual.
Did a rapid taper during last quit attempt went from 15gpd down to like 6 and took agmatine. It seemed to help, I didn’t feel ill at all but it blunted the euphoria and my addict mind said hell no we’re not taking that anymore. Maybe it’ll be different this time around now that I don’t have a choice and can’t purchase more? Also have l-theanine, magnesium, and a small amount of gabapentin and kava root.
I’m going out of town the end of the week, and another trip planned the following week. Really weighing whether or not tapering down to 2-4 grams and then CT would be any better, or just fuck it and CT with some of the helper supps/meds now.
Ultimately, I can’t risk legal consequences. And I can’t live my life paranoid of being pulled over or caught with any amount on me. So insane.
Kind of rambling now, but this community has been a huge help in the past. Glad y’all are still here. I do truly want to quit. I’ve felt trapped for a while. It’s closed me off emotionally, spiritually, and I can’t wait for it to be gone.
Thanks in advance.