I don’t know if I can do this.
I’m 24 FTM (going to be 25 in June) and this is my first and maybe, my only baby ever. The father is not in the picture and I’m so scared. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know if I can be a mother.
My friend offered to fly me to the east coast for an abortion, but that terrifies me as well. I never really wanted kids, but I’ve never considered abortion for myself. While I am very pro choice, it’s never something that’s crossed my mind.
And now I’m confronted with a very real reality.
Part of my fears of becoming a single mom is that no one will ever love me again. I’m never going to be someone’s beloved. I’m just going to be a mom. This depresses me greatly. I also didn’t have my dad in my life growing up and that’s something that crosses my mind often. Will I be enough for my kid? Can I do right by them?
Prenatal depression is kicking my ass. And this whole experience has been so painful and overwhelming. I just don’t know what to do :(