u/Impressive-Long-8910

Maybe this is me finally accepting it.

Trauma from my early childhood resulting in years of medications, on and off, never doing it for me but just making me feel more “empty” than I already felt.

Never got to have the normal childhood, am extremely jealous of everyone I’ve spoken to that had a relatively calm upbringing, I have no goals for the future, can’t move on from the past.

Everything about what I had to go through still keeps me up at night. Therapy did nothing, I can’t just go back in time and gain all my years back. Family brushes it off, tells me to put it aside.

Yet I’m still picking up the pieces from things that happened over a decade ago now.

Just want to rest.