u/Impressive_Error2243

It's short, but I'm not in a good spot, I'm not sleeping well, not doing anything, calling off work as much as I can, and I want to relapse so badly. I have been clean for awhile but I just can't stop thinking about it I don't know what to do, im too scared to speak to friends or family about it because last time i did they did nothing to help me.

I want to get help, but I just can't. There's so much wrong with me, but I don't know what I just feel messed up.