The love I feel for my partners quickly drains out after 3 months.
I stop feeling love for my partners after spending a few months with them.
I don’t know why this happens to me—the love always feels so intense at first, and I feel so happy, but then it just feels boring and too heavy. I feel so guilty; I’d like to be able to tell them I love them, but I can’t because it just feels wrong, as if I weren’t the one who fell in love with them in the first place.
I don’t know if I have some kind of disability or if I just never loved them, though I highly doubt it because it’s always like a time limit—after three months, my mind just starts to forget about my partner and stops loving them.
I wish I could love like everyone else; I try so hard, and it always feels so nice at first, but then it all just fades away, and I hate it. I wish I could apologize to all those people, but I can’t—at least not right now. I feel like a coward and an idiot for even dating someone knowing what goes through my heart each time.
Does anyone know if this could be a sign of some disorder or maybe just me being a jerk that doesn't know how to love?
(Sorry if my english is not so good, I used a translator for this. Also this is a second acc, I'm sorry, but I prefer keeping this a bit private since I feel strange when talking about this. Hope anyone who reads understands me)