Hey, just kind of venting, not expecting much considering how serious some of the discussions here are compared to this one.
Trying to be healthy for once in life, dieting, working out, lost over 60 pounds in the last year.
And also im trying to be sober for good.
I was a heavy user of weed in the past, a moderate drinker as well. I cut back a lot in recent years. Finally made the choice to quit smoking for good this year. And last month decided to also give up drinks too.
I never considered myself an alcoholic or anything. The occasions drunk night here or there. Mostly just a few beers on a Friday or Saturday never anything really consistent. But thought to myself “I don’t even drink that often so why am I doing it when it’s unhealthy?”
So gave it up.
Had a lot of encouragement from my girlfriend who was exited to see me make even more leaps in my health progress.
But now I feel so alone…
I’m doing this all for me ultimately, but she was a big pushing motivator. But now, well I don’t know anyone sober too? She still drinks once or twice a week, does a bit of edibles here and there. My best friend is a heavy smoker/ drinker daily. My parents drink and smoke, all my coworkers, other extended friends.
I’m realizing that I truly don’t have anyone in my life also sober alongside me.
And lately it’s making me want to give it up and just do it for the social aspect alone.
But then I feel the preemptive guilt of giving up on my own goals just for the social dopamine.
I live in a state where drinking is basically a cornerstone of the culture. (Louisiana). And so finding sober people in the same realm of interests as myself is seeming like an impossible task that I’ll just have to put up with.
I don’t think I’ll break sobriety. I’d rather this depression and feeling of isolation over going down the path of hurting my own physical health.
But man, I never saw how lonely it could truly be to do better for yourself.
I don’t know how I was gonna end this or where it was going. But yeah. I miss it, but that’s just something I have to overcome and figure out how to cope with I guess.