ive never been this close to suicide than i am rn
i seriously never been this close to suicide than i am rn, nothing seems to be going my way im so lonely and isolated i literally feel like crying myself to sleep everyday but i cant for some reason i cant cry like ever its like what did i do in my life to deserve this bs, i cant vent to anyone ik cuz i damn sure know theyll hit me w some religious bullshit, religious guilt and shame is gonna be the death of me everything i do or feel is somehow fucked in the eyes of religion you can never be yourself or youll be punished dont do anything thats what religion expects you to be, u either be a preacher with no life or miserable fuck whos going to hell, i really hope all this can end and i die whether of suicide or naturally. i really hope i can stop feeling this constant dread and pending doom i fucking hate all of it i hate my parents, my so called friends them fake fucks, i hate my university i hate the country i live in, i miss my ex man
i really hope for all this bother to end as i just can’t live like this i cant