Gay autist, single and lonely: Does life ever gets better?
Above 30 and still no relationship (never had one) and obviously no hope for family or children. Been in therapy for 7 years, incl. psychiatrists and psychologists etc. As for jobs, I go from one place to the next but mostly living on welfare as keeping a job due to overstimulation/burnout/depression/suicidal ideation is barely possible. This stresses me also financially, no savings or assets. Always have to look out for what is the cheapest at the store.
I was bullied and abused as a kid, both physically (at school), sexually (at home) and verbally. Don't feel like I have anything left to live for but I don't know if I would qualify for euthanasia(?)
Earlier I was very drawn to religions and spirituality in many directions not just the conventional big religions(Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism, Judaism) but I no longer believe in any higher power looking out for us.
I wonder if you have any advice on how to feel better?