Ako lang ba yung medyo nasho-shock sa culture and ugali ng ibang seniors sa hospital?
As a new grad nurse, parang ang overwhelming minsan kasi sobrang ibang environment pala talaga compared sa school. Parang walang preno yung bibig nila minsan super straightforward, pasmado magsalita, and some topics na normal lang sa kanila, ako parang “wait… okay lang ba pag-usapan ’to?”
Like minsan bigla na lang mapupunta usapan sa sex life, chismis about resident doctors, or warnings tungkol sa certain people from other departments like “mag-ingat ka diyan.” Tapos sila nagtatawanan lang casually while ako nasa gilid trying to process everything HAHAHA. Hindi ko alam if sheltered lang ba ako or talagang naninibago lang ako sa real hospital environment.
Nakakashock lang kasi I entered nursing thinking everything would feel super professional all the time, pero reality check pala na hospitals are also full of strong personalities, dark humor, unfiltered conversations, and people coping with stress in different ways. Gets ko naman na baka coping mechanism nila yung pagiging ganon because toxic and draining yung work, pero as someone na bago pa lang, minsan I genuinely feel out of place. Parang baby na napadpad sa adult world.
There are moments tuloy na naiisip ko if magiging ganon din ba ako eventually or if kailangan ko bang makisabay just to fit in. Pero at the same time, ayoko rin mawala yung softness and boundaries ko as a person. I know hindi naman lahat masama, and honestly marami rin talagang mababait and supportive na seniors, pero grabe lang talaga adjustment period when you realize how raw and unfiltered hospital culture can be behind the scenes HAHAHA