Hi redditors,
I just wanted to get this off my chest. I do feel na walang makakaintindi sa’kin kung ioopen ko siya sa iba so might as well opening this up here.
I’m a single mom of 1, and my kid is 11 months old. So technically, I am single for 2 years already. I don’t have plans of dating pa sana, but I met my boyfriend last January 2026.
Back story: He followed me on IG, talked for a while, getting to know, tapos I let him know early stage palang na I am a single mom (well, I’m not ashamed of it naman, it’s just no post ako sa aking baby to protect her sa socials and as well as sa baby daddy na I don’t want to have a contact with). He’s okay with that. We met platonically, like rants about work, life, and shits. He talked nicely. Ang professional pero may kanal humor. That’s why i liked him. He said he provides for his siblings, lives on his own, has a car/motor. Technically, I think of him as someone na matured and a reliable man.
I provide for myself and for my kid. I am not looking for someone who will share the financial burden but at least I have a standards na if I date, number one rule is he has provider mindset.
Fast forward, we became official last february lang. Things just go too fast. Pero I don’t mind kasi he’s really making an effort to know me, my kid, and my family. He visited me at our home after his work even if he’s tired (he is a, 28 yrs old, btw). Everything went well, until March.
I saw his phone’s pw that night and tried it. Upon checking on it, ayun, he’s been reserving another girl just incase hindi kami mag work. Replying to thirstraps, following random girls. I confronted him; he said he’s just scared na we will not be working out kasi he’s been in a situationships multiple times already. I forgave him (yep, aware ako na tanga ko) but it’ll never change the fact na he cheated already.
Nakikita ko naman na bumabawi sya. Tapos March last week, he became unemployed. Kasi he was a contractual then yung reserve work nya nag back out sa JO nya. Technically, I was the one who’s providing for him (I stayed at his apartment currently since my work near lang and hinahatid naman nya ko so menos gastos). Akala ko lahat ng inexpect ko from him like being a reliable man, provider mindset, matured man? Wala. It was all facade for me. Up to this day, ako nag pprovide for him until he has work. Sobra syang maluho kapag may pera sya. Hindi sya future oriented person. Gets ko if wala pa syang savings but the fact na you’re not saving? A big red flag to me. Puro sya pyesa ng motor, paganda ng motor, and paganda ng kotse.
Wala syang initiation in everything. Hindi ko maturn off yung feminine side ko kasi puro masculinity nalang palagi. Ako na sa pera, gusto ako pag mag luto. Gusto ako pag maghugas. It’s really tiring. Suffocating.
At the same time, naaawa akong iwan siya. Ako nalang meron sya. He made boundaries sa mga friends nyang tinatake for granted lang sya because of me. Kasi napapansin ko nga. Pero damn, naaawa ako sakanya pero naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I also became sex deprived kasi once a week lang kami mag deed. Ang lala. Hindi ko maramdamang baby girl ako kasi para akong nanay. Para akong nagkaanak ng pangalawa hahaha.
Ayun lang naman. Nakakapagod. Nakakaumay. Pero di ako marunong umalis. Heart too pure to leave. Feel ko ang sama sama ko. Tsaka napakilala ko na sya sa most of my friends. Nakakahiya na in a span of 2 months wala na kami hahaha. Naiinggit ako sa mga friends ko na maaayos ang boyfriend. Di na nga ko kinikilig sakanya. Parang co-existing nalang. Hay. Sana makaalis na.