I don't know what to do with my life. I'm sick and tired of people asking me stuff and being mad when I say idk when I genuinely don't know. My heart is so empty that I long for any sort of happiness—which is reading manhwa. It's my way to escape reality. Honestly while reading other Reddit posts my problem seems so small. Cuz like I have a roof above my head, food on the table, and I'm young asf! But I just see no point yk? One way or another we're all just gonna not exist anyways, considering the fact that we live in such a fcked up world where so much evil co-exist with the innocent. I maybe young but I know damn well this world isn't even worth the effort to survive in, when happiness is a privilege to those who can afford it. Also I just feel like I genuinely have no one. Sure, I may have close friends and even a best friend but the only person you'll find being with me on days I genuinely feel like I wanna kms—is me. It's also the fact that I want to be happy so bad, but no matter what this void, this emptiness never disappears. I also don't even leave the house (we're on break so no school) but like the entirety of it is js me spending all of it in the house, using my phone. Ik this isn't as serious as what other people are experiencing rn but I really js wanna be heard yk? I js wanna let it all out at some point.
Also I already am aware of the things I'm doing wrong and the things I should be doing instead. I'm also aware that these things I'm thinking are stuff I shouldn't even be thinking about. The hard part is actually doing it. Like actually doing the things that will improve myself.