u/IndependentTotal9063

I can think of nothing worse than starting to gamble and getting a winning streak. it will totally warp your reality of money. At one point I was depositing 100$ and winning 1,500$ or 2,500$. I would have withdrawals from 10 casinos for 100 to 2k at a time. I was using gambling as a source of income it was so easy to make money.

well I don’t know what happened but I can’t win for anything anymore. the days of going on a 2,000$ winning streak are long gone. but I’m stuck with this mindset of wanting to play because its fun(because I’m use to winning). losing is not fun, having no money is not fun.

when i use to tell people I was gambling to make money they always use to say what if you lose etc etc but I use to take advantage of deposit and new user bonuses so I ”couldn’t” lose. i didn’t even realize I was giving myself an addiction.

does this happen to anyone else? I go weeks without gambling then I’ll blow all my money in one night and feel like shit the next day or week etc. tell myself I’m not doing this again but I can never even remember why I did if the previous time. i don’t know what my trigger is because i don’r even remember making the choice. it literally feels like someone took over my life for about a day and gave it back to me in debt. like a total stranger. i couldn’t tell you why because the person I am right now can think of no reason to gamble. it’s stupid and you just lose money. how can I feel this way 99.9% of the time but have these moments of insanity