I’m 25 years old and I want to end my life
I’m Male, 25 years old and as I type this I’m at one of the lowest points in my life. A few years ago I was diagnosed with Severe Mixed and Depressive disorder. My anxiety and depression had got worse over time mainly due to my condition Generalised Hyperhidrosis. If you aren’t aware of the condition, it basically means I sweat excessively over my body whether it’s freezing cold or otherwise. It ruins my life. I’ve tried numerous medications but they don’t work.
Back in November 2024, I suffered a fall at work and done my knee ligament that left me out of work for months. I was already struggling at work before this injury. I was contemplating resigning before it happened but when I found out the management were already thinking of terminating my contract I decided to resign. Since then I continue to struggle. Many years ago I was the most energetic, social able person ever and now I’m the total opposite. Until people are in my shoes I don’t think they understand me. I don’t speak to my family about it as they have enough going on especially my mum. Family of 6 in the house, my dad is unwell and my mum works a 8-3 every day whilst coming back and looking after my dad. My older sister has her own battles and I try look after my two younger sisters the best I can.
I’m not on here for sympathy, I just need to just shout and express and explain myself even just to strangers. Anxiety and depression medication don’t work and it seems my GP don’t care until I’m 6ft under. I feel worthless and that I don’t deserve to be happy. People tell me things will get better but they have been saying that for years, when will it? I can’t wait forever.