Lost my best friend last night.
So for the past decade ive been in the service and right now im over 2k miles away from most family and good friends. Over two years ago I rescued a pigeon who was abandoned and over that time we've become two peas in a pod. Shes always with me whether its on my shoulder or head. She preened me and I cuddled her and we were just super close. Shes been the one thing that I can come home to and she just perks right up and comforts me, didnt matter how my day was. All that to lead to this morning, when I found her in her cage where she sleeps and nest at. She passed last night whilst nesting on some unfertilized eggs. Im taking it really hard. Ive held her little body and talked to her as to comfort myself, before laying her in a box and burying her. I font know what im to do now, since the house is quiet of her coos and ive lost my shadow. I guess I'm posting here to find out ways to cope and more importantly to get this off my chest as some form of epitath or tribute. Part of me feels like ive failed her, yet another part feels like ive given her a good life whilst I had her.