u/Independent_Travel49

I'm going to hopefully keep this short.

Went into Semester 2 of my senior year with an honours average in my Semester 1 classes. Got cooked during Semester 2, now any work I seem to put in doesn't seem to help, and all my effort seemed wasted, leaving me demotivated and in a deeper hole than before.

Now with 3 weeks until my Finals, I still have major opportunities through assignments and smaller quizzes to begin this comeback and salvage what shitshow I turned my Semester into.

Here are my subjects

Grade 12 Social

Grade 12 English

Grade 12 Chemistry

Grade 11 Math

Any specific ways to remember or study for these subjects are appreciated, and will be contributed to my comeback.

I'm 17 and 351 days old, and it's about the final stretch in my senior year of high school. The entire year, I've been comfortably enjoying the last few months or so of what is school and what my life looks like as a student. I've always been one to prioritize fun or anything BUT work, especially now since there is really only a few weeks left.

My first semester went great as I had low 80s grades, and went into second semester with severely more difficult courses but that willingness to grind and hopefully keep my honours up so that I can have an extra little title next to my name during my graduation.

Long story short, I got COOKED. Second semester has been good in how I can maximize my fun with the summer and spring months, along with just the time ticking away until my school life ends and I eventually walk into the summer as an adult.

What came with this was an absolute abomination and the fact I choked so badly on my grades. For reference, I dropped my average mark around 20-30% from 70s and 80s to 50s and 60s. It really demotivated me and was a huge moral loss as anything I try to do in school now academically leaves me stagnant. Whatever improvement I THINK I have, fizzles out and turns into nothing.

I do remain hopeful though. I still have my Finals, and a few more quizzes to knock out and assignments that could boost my marks back to a respectable amount, as they're about 2-3 weeks away.

What does that look like?

I just don't know where to begin. I feel motivated to do well, but procrastination takes over and then I end up worse than before. I feel motivated to get good grades but sometimes just won't put up the work to do so, and I just feel toxic myself doing it so many times because whenever I do feel good, it doesn't reflect on my schoolwork. It's led me to just completely not even do it. I'm mostly just sitting around knowing something worth of note CAN be done, but I just don't.

Any advice is needed, and I'd appreciate brutal honesty as I think I need a wake-up call, or to be reminded that I still have a future ahead of me. Thanks.

In Short: Win first few games ⤵️

Drop a game or two that was VERY winnable ⤵️

Tilt like crazy ⤵️

Bad record, bad rewards, feeling of regret and wasted time ⤵️

Wait until next week to play ⤵️

I think I'm a decent player by all means, starting out like 10 or 11-0 every WL with my ultra Tiki Taka style. But after that elo, players who I would usually beat and are worse than the first 7 or so people always win. I don't know if it's a skill issue or that I'm tilting so badly after the first wins, because some of them come from shit gameplay (I still deserved the wins, though.)

I find it to always be the Park The Bus, spam counterattack, Through Ball spamming players who don't switch their player when I'm trying to attack. For some reason, I just turn to toast often. Everytime it makes me mad, and since you have to genuinely be a robot to play this game without complaining and showing an ounce of emotion, so I end up dropping a few games and I end up like 12-3 or 11-4, even though I have like 14-15 win potential. My rewards are so-so, and I feel absolutely nothing afterwards.