u/Indicvnt

I’m struggling lately to figure out wtf is wrong with me. My husband got clean last year finally as that was one of the main reasons why I was separating from him. I still feel that separation between us though. Like I love him but in love with him idk? I’ve had lingering feelings for my ex and I keep trying to figure out if it’s normal first love feelings where they are just always a part of you or if I’m just not over him like I really thought I was. It’s been 10+ years since I was in a relationship with him so why am I still dreaming about him and hoping one day in the future we reconnect in that way? What is wrong with me?