u/Indigo_Azure

Hey gang!!

I started 5mg this week and I think it may be too strong. I am thinking of doing clicks to get either 2.5 or maybe 3mg out of it. How do you do the clicks?

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I (38F) am starting to have doubts about someone (40M) I’ve been seeing for around 2.5 months and I can’t work out if I’m overthinking or if my body is trying to tell me something.

On paper he’s lovely. Emotionally intelligent, thoughtful, politically engaged, affectionate, very secure, reassuring, kind. He messages me every day, remembers things I say, checks in on me etc. He’s also been incredibly understanding about difficult emotional stuff in my life recently and has handled it maturely.

But I’m starting to feel this creeping sense of dread and emotional flatness around the relationship and I feel awful about it because he genuinely hasn’t done anything “bad”.

A few things are bothering me though:

In 10 weeks he hasn’t been to my house once. I’ve always gone to him. I don’t drive either, so I’ve walked, ubered etc. We also don’t live far apart at all — it’s about a 12 minute Uber or roughly an hour walk. He has reasons (dog, broken car, money stress) but eventually I brought it up and he initially got defensive and tried to claim things had been more balanced than they actually have been. He apologised afterwards and said he’d come to mine more, but something about the defensiveness really bothered me.

He’s struggling mentally a bit at the moment (possible ADHD/depression) and I’ve noticed I’m starting to feel more like an emotional support system than someone excitedly dating a person. I feel terrible even typing that because I care about him a lot.

He dominates conversations sometimes. We can spend hours talking about his thoughts/interests/history/politics and then afterwards I realise he barely asked me anything about myself. He’s very intelligent, but not especially playful or emotionally “bouncy”, if that makes sense? I’m a very playful/personality-led person and I’m starting to feel weirdly unseen.

I’ve noticed I’m carrying a lot of the emotional momentum. Organising, travelling, checking in, adapting around him etc.

The confusing thing is I do care about him and I think he really cares about me too. I don’t think he’s malicious or selfish. I actually think he’s probably a bit stuck/low mentally at the moment.

But I’m also noticing I’m relieved when plans get cancelled and the idea of sitting in his flat lately fills me with exhaustion rather than excitement.

Has anyone experienced this kind of “nothing is technically wrong but something feels off” relationship? Did it turn out to be anxiety/avoidance or genuine incompatibility?

Injection day today (this morning) and for the first time since starting I was absolutely ravenous today. I have eaten more than usual and was craving salty carbs specifically. I know it will kick back in and I'm on the lowest dose for another week so I get that this can just happen. I suppose I'm just panicking abit and needing to hear stories that days like this happen!