Drunk experience
Hi, so a few months ago, i went out with friends and there was alcohol involved, my drink was open and we were sharing, and it was fine but then we went to one of my friends house which was very weird because it was time to go home and my place was really near of the beach we were in, and my friend live very far from it, still, i go with them, we dropped him of, and suddenly this couple told me to go to their place because it was till early, and they had a pool, i was very drunk at this point because the girl keep giving me from her drink, and i do remember telling her to drink too, because it was just me who kept drinking, i remember beggind the friend we dropped of to give me coffee because i really wanted to throw off, and was very very dizzy, so one thing that was weird was the guy from the couple, stopped (with the friend we dropped off) at a pharmacy to buy viagra (which i laughed because wtf i thought it was a prank) and then at my friends house he shower off (weird again, because we were going to the pool, btw he was sober, he was the driver) point is, i came to the couples house, the girl asked me to shower with her and i was weirded out but i said ok why not, she asked me if i was interested in a threesome, while we were alone, and i was like, ok that sounds good, you guys are hot, but im really drunk right so, i dont want to, but maybe another day. And thought that was it.
Well, it wasnt it, i came looking for my clothes inside after, but didnt remeber where it was, i was cold asf, and there was a bed in the living room, they told me to lay down, so i didnt faint, they lay down with me, they started touching, hugging me, i began to panic internally, i didnt know where i was, what house, what urb it was, i had my phone but i was so scared to tell my mom, so ashamed, i text my friend, she said i should do it, why not, and this couple studied with me, so i was scared to say no to them too, when she go to touch me down there she said if it was ok, i said yes, i regret it as soon as i did, i only ask to stop later, he didnt but she told to back off, i did participate, i regret it too, i tried to like it, but inmedietly as it finish (he didnt use condoms, i get mad at him bcos he didnt tell me) i felt so bad, so sick.
Its been 6 or 7 months, 3 of those months i coudnt even touch myself, or read about sex, i was too disgusted. I cried when i applied medicine there because the mf give me an infection.
My friends told me it was sexual abuse, but i still dont believe it, maybe if I had said no, if i didnt drink, if i called my mom, i did said yes, it was after multiple no but still.
My mom knows, she called them, threatened them, the guy works at the violence against women station which is ironical, and well idk, i guess i need opinions? How to let it go.