My first crush
Me girl age 17
So there is a boy in my coaching named Ank 😭
At first I didn’t care that much but one day I noticed Ank looked at me like 5 times in class 👀 and after that I started thinking about him. But the weird thing is when I’m around him in class I feel normal like “okay whatever” 😭 but when I come home I keep thinking and imagining things about him.
He is very shy and calm. I think that’s why I noticed him more because my coaching has many loud people. Then one day my friend Riya told me she also likes Ank 💀 but honestly I think she likes attention more than him because she keeps talking loudly in front of him, teasing him, saying things like “he’s short” and making everything dramatic 😭
Then she started telling me about her ex boyfriends and they were literally 20–22 years old while she is only 15 💀 and that made me uncomfortable because she acts like it’s cool. She also says bad words all the time and makes weird inappropriate hand signs, so slowly I started trusting her less.
And then I became even more confused about Ank because I started comparing myself with other people. Sometimes I think I’m ugly and maybe he would never like me 😭 but at the same time I feel bad when she jokes about his appearance because I know how that feels.
Then the worst thing happened 😭 my teacher shifted me to another floor in coaching so now I barely even see him. It feels like Ank already disappeared from my life before anything even started. And now I’m scared maybe one day he will leave coaching too because another student completed her one year and left.
So now I’m just stuck in this weird situation:
👀 shy eye contact 💭 imagination at home 😭 confusion 🎭 friend drama 🏫 different floor
Help me what should I do with all this