u/Individual_Pace2299

As a 12h sun/mercury in Taurus, I just recently came to realization that what usually saves me from the gloominess and loneliness of this house is my Jupiter in the 9h.

The 9th house in astrology represents:

- higher learning

- long distance travel

- philosophy

- religion/spirituality

- worldview/belief systems

Whenever my 12h placements try to suffocate me especially in the context of my outside world/social life, I usually retreat and find my solace in books, articles, foreign culture/languages, foreign media, and travel. I also write essays and create social media posts for foreign audiences. (mainly English speaking audiences – I am a Southeast Asian living in Asia and English is not my first language)

I also consider myself a lifelong learner because most of my childhood and adolescence years were disrupted by too much expectations and rush hours. I didn't have the time and space to think clearly. Only now that I'm almost 30, I can start thinking and doing things for myself.

I'd like to emphasize how much the 9th house has blessed me effortlessly with many things that most people from the similar backgrounds would have difficulty accessing such as openness and flexibility to accept different opinions, thoughts, and belief systems. Being exposed to foreign culture for long term is also one of them.

I'd consider myself financially lucky to have the capacity to fulfill my 9h Juno's purpose too but even if I didn't have the means to travel and stay in a foreign country for long, I can still solely rely on the internet and other more affordable resources to help me realize it.

For the record, I spent a total of 6 years living in 3 different major cities in 3 different countries, and the only continent I haven't traveled to is pretty much Africa (excluding the Poles).

But what I'm trying to say is consider "escaping" your pain and sorrow inflicted by the 12h to where your Jupiter is located in your chart. After all, Jupiter is the planet of Dharma – the planet of compassion even during the times when you don't have one for yourself – I can assure you it will help so much with clarity and emotional relief.

Have you also had any good experiences tapping into your Jupiter to balance out the bad in your natal chart?

I am a Taurus sun 12h, so safe to say I love my sleep. A lot.

But what I mean is if you have prominent 12h placements and you're struggling with life choices and direction, sleep can be such an underrated solution.

I noticed that whenever I get stuck with options, or whatever issue I struggle with in my waking life, my dreams would become much more vivid and metaphorical. But once I'm done with it, the dreams just automatically stop being dramatic and lucid. This house rules the unconscious and dreams, and it's the house of Pisces. That being said, tap into your unconscious mind more because oftentimes it always tries to tell your waking mind what to do and how to solve your problems, even when you don't see the connection at first.

Fyi, I am a Buddhist but I suck at meditating or praying because it feels too deliberate for me. Meanwhile, sleeping puts my mind in a more natural flow state. Sometimes, I even dream about the people I know and the internal struggles they're facing that I have no way of knowing until I actually ask them about it.

Do you as a 12th houser often experience vivid dreams as well? They might try to tell you something important about yourself and your world.

The whole trope of 12thhousers being scrutinized and alienated for no reason has so much to do with the fact that non 12thhousers are the ones being dishonest about who they are or their stances.

To illustrate, I know some people would look down on me at some point of my life but this person in particular stood out to me the most. It was 2014 when I just started college overseas. This person happened to be my classmate. Mind you that I did nothing, I knew nothing, and I had no interest in this person. I was basically just existing, minding my own business. Both of us were from the same country so it's not unusual for international students from the same country to kind of stick together especially when we were only 17 at the time.

She'd enthusiastically chat with other classmates while completely ignoring me whenever I tried to chime in. The first time she acted that way, I already got the memo. Not that I had the slightest interest in building a close friendship with her anyway, but I was just being courteous and tried to fit in.

Years of observing her attitude towards me and also hearing stories from my friends about her being a proud bully who attached her self worth to all things shiny–wealth, grades, status, and whatnot–I learned that my quiet, observant, frugal, and honest way of living kinda triggered the crap out of her because she grew up in a strict Christian household (another irony) and status-driven social environment that upholds reputation and superficiality. It's no wonder she tried too hard not to be associated with someone like me.

This is all behind me now but occasionally I'd still find this person hovering around my social media trying to peek at what I'm up to these days, which is kind of ironic considering in real life, she deliberately put on this disgusted expression whenever she came into contact with my presence, as if I were the demon spawn she read on the Bible lol.

People project onto us 12thhousers or act nasty for no reason, and that's inevitable. However, this doesn't mean you can just let yourself die as a martyr and do nothing about it. The best course of action is to have all the facts and evidence straight–since 12th house can fog your ability to discern–and try not to take things personally because what they do to you reflects who they are, not you.

I saw a post on social media that said there are indicators in Astrology that make people "not meant to be successful in life" and even though the measure of success is subjective to each individual, I have several placements that resonate with my actual experience. I can't help but to focus on my mercury (taurus 12h) square Neptune 8h in Capricorn. I always struggle with inconsistency, bad decisions, distractions that makes my life path very non-linear. Fogginess and confusion about directions though clarity has become apparent as I get older.

I also have the Sun in 12h and the chart makes a grand earth trine with 4h virgo stellium (moon, mars, NN, Lilith). South Node in 10h Pisces (some people said this indicates a past life full of hard work). I always feel all of my ambition and potential are sort of bottled up with nowhere to go, and the universe seems to conspire against me so that I can just chill and become the passenger princess lol.

Anyone dealing with the same problem as well? What is your solution to this?