i just want help and comfort. please.
(im sorry if this breaks any rules or anything i just made this account for the title reason as i have no other choice)
this pass year i feel like ive been getting in my head or just something is wrong with me. no matter how hard i try to be a good person to all my friends they just push me off as a "friend", like side character friend. i feel like im always left out, nobody wants to interact with me, and im just usless to them. they always like someone better, which i know they can, but it hurts to see that nobody likes me the most... it just feels like i have friends.. but not actual friends. i feel alone. i even have a girlfriend but yet i feel like im always doing something wrong even though i love her so much i just feel like i end up hurting her in the end. i just feel like a horrible person, a person that is lost, and a person with no true friends. and i cant express this to them, it makes me feel attention seeking. and im sure they also have their own problems i dont wanna put mine onto their plate. i feel corny posting on my tiktok story something depressing. and i know my friends hate it, one of them even told me they though it was annoying. it feels like i just cant win and i have no one. not even my family. my parents i cant tak to about this, my brother we are fond of each other, we are just brothers, and my sister is 4.
if anyone has advice or help i would really like it. im sorry if this is said badly im only 14 im not the best ive probably just rambled on the same words 10 times. i hope this doesnt break the rules of reddit im sorry if it does.
thank you