Unfair
Well, since I don’t really have anyone to talk to or vent to, I just wanted to share some things that I honestly don’t know how to deal with anymore.
In 2024, my brother — someone I was extremely close to — committed suicide, and it shattered me to my core. Since that day, I haven’t been able to function properly as a human being. A part of me feels like it died with him.
Not long ago, I discovered that my father — who was one of the reasons my brother took his own life — has been cheating on my mother with another woman. On top of that, he treats my mother terribly, and watching it happen fills me with so much anger and disgust.
The hardest part is that my mother has no idea he’s cheating on her. Every single day, I carry this unbearable weight of knowing the truth and wondering whether I should tell her, but I just don’t have the strength or courage to do it.
I always planned to finish university and leave this country behind, hoping I could finally escape all of this pain. But now I feel consumed by guilt. I can’t stop thinking about what would happen if I left my mother alone with him. And honestly, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore.